Niiyawe'e ...
I miss you today. Everyone tells me you are still with me, but I know that it will never be the same. There are so many different things that I miss about you, but mostly you unconditional support, encouragement, and love. I miss being able to pick up the phone and talk to you about the incessant thoughts that whirl throughout this vast space between my ears. I miss your ole hypnosis ... your ole bell ... or ways you would put someone under. Gawd you were so crazy ... I miss your laugh.
Mostly, I miss the spiritual direction. I use to like the way you would smoke a cigarette, lean back (possibly listening to the spirits), then your "hmmmm", then you would have this brainstorm from I don't know where OR you would go down a therapeutic path OR you would say something that would make everyone laugh. It was always hard to tell which way you would go when you worked with people. Mostly, it was hard for me to tell which way you would handle me and a situation I was working on. I do feel alone ... I hope someday this will subside.
Loving you always, your friend Estelle
